My Enemy

i know it shouldn't amuse me
to hear of your difficulties
but you destroyed my life once
and so
i can't help the sadistic streak
that rears its head
the little voice in my mind
that laughs
when i hear
about your car wreck
when i find out
you have lupus
when they talk about
your strokes
how your husband left you
and your children hate you
and that bus that hit you?
that one was priceless
i know it's cruel and petty
but did you really think
that you could hurt me
like you did
and not pay for it?
ah, but i guess
people like you
never learn

© 1991-2008 Samantha Greene

Stupid Selfishness

My emptiness consumes me
My loneliness - a curse
My demons hunt and stalk me
As they walk upon this earth
They've come to drag me down
Back to their pits in Hell
Where I shall pay for my sins
And forever there to dwell

Obsessed with my own
Selfish, stupid woes
I let in the darkness
That now claims my soul
I invited into my life
The depression
That now calls it home

I thought my prayers had been answered
I though I had finally won
The dream that I so cherished
I could never have known
The nightmare
That I had begun

14 December 2001