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I'm complicated, can you handle that?
The way I talk, the way I act?
Can you handle tears for no good reason?
Blind loyalty and random treason?
Can you take my private kind of crazy?
The times I'm hyper, the times I'm lazy?
The random thoughts that cross my mind
Are often weird and badly timed.
And when in the middle of a crowd
Will it embarrass you when I laugh out loud?
With no excuse and no regret
For something so long ago said?
And when I laugh until I cry
Will you be mad not knowing why?
When you see how strong I am
Will it ruin all your precious plans?
Will you turn and walk away
Because of something I just had to say?
And when I fall so dark and deep
Will you hold me while I weep?

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Desperate Prayer

Precious angel hear my plea
Please come near and answer me
Grant me help from up above
I need your help; I need your love
I'm slowly sinking, going under
Losing hope; losing wonder
I try and try, yet nothing works
Do you above, see my hurt?
See my worry, see my pain?
And can you make me whole again?

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

stress

stress
coming from every angle
stress
driving me out of my mind
stress
making it impossible to sleep
stress
making it hard to eat
stress
making me the world's biggest bitch
stress
tearing me apart
stress
making me want to run away
stress
making my life seem worthless
stress
is anything really worth this?

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Disillusioned

How can so many things
Go so wrong
So quickly?
How can everything
Fall apart
All at once?
How can things be so right
So perfect one day
And all to hell
The next?
And where
Can you find help
When there's no one
To turn to?

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Crap...

So, let me get this straight...
We can put a man on the moon...
We can cure most and even prevent some diseases...
We can take an organ from one person and put it in another...
But we can't make a popcorn that pops completely
so that there are no hard little kernels to bite down on
and break your tooth with?

Bullshit.

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

love

i love...
i love to love...
i love to love my love...

come to me
and you will see
how very much i love

walk with me
and you will see
how deeply can i love

stand with me
and you will see
how fiercely can i love

lie with me
and you will see
how sweetly can i love

trust in me
and you will see
how only you i love

i love...
i love to love...
i love to love my love...

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Untitled

You shower me with love unearned
light fire that within me burns
and judge this soul, so very stained
worth more gold than man can weigh
You wrap me in Your warmth and love
and accept me in Your world above
and though i fall and cry unworthy
You shake your head and whisper worthy
"You were created in My name
and all within you I may claim
although I leave the choice to you
(for love freely given is always true)
I never left your side my child
through valleys dark or jungles wild"
and when i awoke, i knew the truth
that love alone shall be the proof

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

winds of love

angel wings beat against the trees
releasing golden snow of autumn leaves
a rushing wind like banshee's scream
as winter falls upon the dream
the snow that falls is pure and white
and bathes us in the holy light
those who seek shall truly find
One most loving, just and kind
the One who is and always was
the One who loves you just because...

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Victory

What vanity this be
And not at all like me
To laugh and sing in such delight
But it has been quite a fight
To get to where I am today
And nice to see rewards are paid
So vain, you think and it may be
To find my joy in such a thing
But to think such thoughts can only mean
You've never fought the skinny jeans

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Nosy neighbors

Nosy neighbors at the door
What do you think you're looking for?
Why must you always sneak and peek?
Can I not have but a moment's peace?
Stop this now or one thing's for sure
You'll see much more that you bargained for.

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Hurt

Sometimes, you just can't say it any better than someone else already has...



I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep mysel
fI would find a way...

Es mi vida...

I have what I have and I've got what I've got;
It is what it is and it's not what it's not.
I followed your rules and I followed your law
And I've nothing to show for it, nothing at all.
So here is my new rule, new law, and new creed:
I am who I am - you can like it or leave!

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Unworthy

With all the darkness that courses through my veins,
With all the misery I have caused and known,
How can they look to me for guidance?
With all the sins I have committed,
And the thousand more that I have considered,
How can they ask me to teach them?
If they could see the dark secrets
That hide in my heart,
Perhaps they would understand.
Though I may see
I am blind.
Though I may hear
I am deaf.
And I am far too lost
To show them the way.

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Devotion

Yes, I love him
I don't care how foolish or witless
They may think it is
I have always loved him
From the first
Moment,
Look,
Word,
Touch.
He is now and has always been
My life
And the truest happiness is in being
His wife.

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

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If I could tell you what I see
Without fearing reprecussions,
I would tell you that
The one you pine for, the one you believe
Doesn't see you that way,
He doesn't just want to be friends.
He's only waiting until he finishes
What he's started,
Before he begins something else.
He'll tell you how he feels soon enough,
And you will have the children you long for...
In a little town in Illinois
You'll find the happiness you desire.
And the end you resist so strongly
Is not coming nearly as quickly as you fear
Nor half so painfully as you dread.
But I don't suppose you'd believe me
Even if I dared to speak.

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Cravings

Why is it
You're never hungry
Till that damn
Pizza commercial
Comes on?
And even though
You know
The pizza place
Is closed,
Nothing else
In the house
Looks good
At all.

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

I hate the Pizza Hut commercials. I think they put them on after the restaurants close on purpose...just to screw with us...

My Only One

Call my name and I will be there
No matter what stormy raging sea I must cross
No matter what steep and rugged mountain I must climb
No matter what dark and deadly valley I must brave
Call my name and I will be there
Whisper my name and I will come
For you are now and forever
My only one.

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

OMG...did I actually just write something...that isn't depressing...and yet still doesn't suck completely...wow...lol

Glory Road

As I walk through this world of sorrow
I have no friends, nowhere to turn
The road leads on and so I follow
Hoping to find what I cannot earn

Oh, lead me on, oh, glory road
Help me to find my way back home
Walk by my side and hold me close
And lead me on Your glory road

I know the road is straight and narrow,
Though many try, so many stray,
Oh, Lord I'd leave this world tomorrow
If I could only see Your face.

Oh, lead me on, oh, glory road
Help me to find my way back home
Walk by my side and hold me close
And lead me on Your glory road

When morning light seems too long coming
And the night is dark and deep
I trust in You to keep me going
For You never leave Your sheep

Oh, lead me on, oh, glory road
Help me to find my way back home
Walk by my side and hold me close
And lead me on Your glory road
.
You hold me close and walk by my side
You still my fears and calm my mind
You washed me clean, as white as snow
And set me on this glory road

Oh, lead me on, oh, glory road
Help me to find my way back home
Walk by my side and hold me close
And lead me on Your glory road

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Written in the spring of 08. Another one that I'm not able to write the music to, which sucks because I know exactly how it should sound.

I'm Going Home

I walked into the old man's room
It was gloomy and dark
He lay on an old beat up bed
Victim of an old heart
I sat on the bed beside him
He put his hand in mine
The old eyes looked up at me
He said listen well my child

Someday you will see
And someday you will know
Why I no longer have any fears
Because I'm going home
There's kingdom in the clouds
Where the streets are paved with gold
And there's a crystal sea a-shinin'
Or so I have been told

He said, "I'm going home
There's a band of angels comin' to take me away"
He said, "I'm going home
And hopefully I'll see you, join me there someday"

Then the old man began to shiver
And his eyes seemed to fill with age
But even with his final breath
There was a smile on his face

And now I'm going home
There's a band of angels comin' to take me away
Yes, I'm going home
And you know, I'm gonna see him; I'll join him there today

Because I'm going home....

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

I lost the original writing of this one, so I'm not sure of the date, other than that it was somewhere around 93. It was inspired by the death of my step-grandfather, but it really encompasses the attitude of so many that I've known who have passed on. I wish that I could write the music that I hear in my head for it, but I'm just not that good. LOL

Run Away...

Let's run away together.
Just pack our bags and leave;
We'll drive south,
Following summer's dwindling trail.
We'll find a sandy beach
Where the sun shines warm
All year long.
And a cozy little cottage
Where the whispering roar of the waves
Can rock us to sleep.
We'll leave our cares and worries
To freeze in winter's grip.
We'll live for ourselves
And no one else.
And when they come looking for us,
We'll run away and hide;
Laugh at their confusion.
Because they don't understand
How little we need them
And how much we need
Each other.

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene