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it's not that i want things my own way
its not that i'm not up for some change
but if to speak and be heard
is so undeserved
perhaps i should just walk away

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

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Weave your web of destiny
Around my heart and pay no heed
To the thorns along the way
Tis my only way of staying safe
From one who speaks with lover's pride
And speaks me promises filled with lies
That dragon who sees me as his gold
Ever to hoard; never to hold


© 1991-2010 Samantha Greene

I started this one a long time ago, and now I have no idea where I was going with it...

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What fits we fought when we were young
With souls so pure and hearts so strong
We genuises in our naivete
We saw the world with such clarity
But chained within our selfish thoughts
We passed up wars we should have fought
And now become the mindless pawns
We were too righteous to look upon

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Another Flashback

So, my dad was cleaning some stuff out of one of his buildings and found some of my old things. Some old books that I thought were long gone and such, but he also found a very old poem. Not the greatest thing I've ever written, but what makes me remember it is how it was written. You see, it was an English assignment (seventh or eighth grade I think). We spent an entire week in the library, and we were supposed to be doing research to write a poem on the Civil War. So all the kids spent hours looking up dates and trying to make them rhyme, while I wrote mine in ten minutes and goofed off the rest of the time. (No surprise, huh?) The funny thing is, I'm the only one that got an A....and then they published it in the school paper. LOL Hmm...wonder what would have happened if I'd actually put some effort into it? ;) Well, here it is:

Shades of Blue and Grey

The Blue and the Grey
Shall clash this day
In a bloody war
Over field and moor

And in the field
Blood freely flows
A last stand is made
As the sunset glows

The land bleeds blood
Of soldier's pride
Brothers fight boldly
Yet on different sides

To clash together
One grim day
Grey with Blue
Blue with Grey

At Gettysburg
The fought and fell
The battlefield became
A living hell

The Grey has lost
The Blue has won
And now the end
Has finally begun

No one really wins
Though you see
Not the Blue and Grant
Not the Grey and Lee

For both will fight
Again some day
In shades of Blue
And shades of Grey

Fall 1992

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

forewarned

i tried to warn you
that you were playing
a dangerous game
one that i could play
much better
but you wouldn't listen
and now
that you see how easily
i can twist
them round my finger;
how quickly
your own friends
might stab you in the back;
now you know
how dangerous the game
can be
and how amusing it is
that now
your loyalty
knows no bounds
your devotion
knows no end
such a pity
that you had
to push me
into showing you
the possibilities

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Hehehe...so you're wondering where I' ve been? Putting my poetry to music of course. :)

Well, okay, I can't really sing well...or at all...and I can't play the guitar well...but when has that ever stopped me from doing something? At least it's fairly close to what I intended...



Oh...and the original poem, if you wish... http://snoflake241.blogspot.com/2009/03/lift-me-up.html

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Thank You

Thank you for letting me walk in on my own
Thank you for allowing me to fight my fights alone
Thank you for leaving me alone and without hope
Thank you for not caring if and how I coped
Thank you for not asking what happened in my life
Thank you for not caring about those tears I cried
Thank you for leaving me lost and hurt and scared
Thank you for showing me how much you didn’t care

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

For All Eternity

Well I felt so lost and lonely
Even standing in a crowd
And though others claimed to love me
I felt like odd man out
I didn’t know which way to turn
Or how to stay afloat
I didn’t have the strength to try
Or a single shred of hope

Then You touched my heart
And You opened my eyes
You showered me with mercy
And gave me a new life
You washed away my sins
And then You set me free
So I’ll bow before You now
And for all eternity

I found what I was missing
My emptiness is gone
And I no longer worry
When I see approaching storms
For I stand upon a Rock now
That I know cannot be moved
And God the Father loves me
His Son’s the living proof

He touched my heart
And He opened my eyes
He showered me with mercy
And gave me a new life
He washed away my sins
And then He set me free
So I’ll worship Him now
And for all eternity

I can’t believe I waited
So long to see the Truth
All those years I wasted
Demanding to see proof
But now my heart is flooded
With faith and love so strong
That I just can’t stop praising
My King, my Lord, my God!

Cause He touched my heart
And He opened my eyes
He showered me with mercy
And gave me a new life
He washed away my sins
And then He set me free
So I’ll lift His name on high
For all eternity

He washed away my sins
And then He set me free
So I’ll sing to Him praises
For all eternity

01 March 2009

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Child Of The King

It’s time to face another day,
Temptation standing in my way
With sin and doubt at every turn
You’d think by now I’d finally learn
To turn away and pass on by
From temptation of the night
Now all that’s left to do is pray
And when it comes to turn and say

I’m not a child of the night
I wasn’t made for such things
Into the darkness I’ll cry
I am a child of the King

How they laughed and how they grinned
When I told them I’d been born again
The didn’t want to see their sin
And tried to drag me down with them
“Have a drink” “No, have a light”
“One more look” “One more bite”
“Take what you want” “Take what you like”
“Everything will be all right”

But I’m not a child of the night
I wasn’t made for such things
Into the darkness I’ll cry
I am a child of the King

He came done once, He’ll come again
And all the world may tremble when
His majesty lights up the sky
But I for one, will gladly cry

I’m not a child of the night
I wasn’t made for this world
Into the darkness I’ll cry
I am a child of the Lord

I’m not a child of the night
I wasn’t made for such things
Into the darkness I’ll cry
I am a child of the King
01 February 2009

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Lift Me Up

Walking in this darkness is taking such a toll
Sometime I feel just like I’m fighting for my very soul
Well, I’ve studied all Your words, Lord, and I’m living in Your ways
But I need a little help down here to make it through today

I need a touch of Your hand; Or just a whisper from Your throne
A little something to remind me that I’m not on my own
When I’m feeling lost and lonely and ready to give up
I need a moment of Your grace to lift me up

I’m fighting the good fight and I’m walking in my faith
Oh, but Lord it’s hard to keep on going day after day
Well, I’d like to hear “Well done” when You finally call me home
Oh, but Lord I’m only human, I can’t do this alone

I need a touch of Your hand; Or just a whisper from Your throne
A little something to remind me that I’m not on my own
When I’m feeling lost and lonely and ready to give up
I need a moment of Your grace to lift me up

I’m not asking for a miracle, but it’s come to push and shove
If I’m gonna rise above this Lord, I need to feel Your love

I need a touch of Your hand; Or just a whisper from Your throne
A little something to remind me that I’m not on my own
When I’m feeling lost and lonely and ready to give up
I need a moment of Your grace to lift me up

When I’m feeling lost and lonely and ready to give up
I need a moment of Your grace to lift me up

I need a moment of Your grace to lift me up

I need a moment of Your grace, Lord, to lift me up

15 February 2009

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Joyful Noise

Joy, make a joyful noise
Oh, joy, make a joyful noise
Yeah, joy, make a joyful noise
To the Lord, our God above

He came to Earth to show the way
And told us we could be saved by faith
He allowed Himself to be crucified
So that we could be reconciled

Joy, make a joyful noise
Oh, joy, make a joyful noise
Yeah, joy, make a joyful noise
To the Lord, our God above

They put Him in a borrowed tomb
And sealed him in the deep dark gloom
But when He rose, all darkness cowered
For Sin and Death had lost their power

Joy, make a joyful noise
Oh, joy, make a joyful noise
Yeah, joy, make a joyful noise
To the Lord, our God above

He paid the price, He bore our sins
So that we could be born again
And now He rules from His throne above
Bathing us in His holy love

Joy, make a joyful noise
Oh, joy, make a joyful noise
Yeah, joy, make a joyful noise
To the Lord, our God above

Fogiveness can now be received
Because our Lord has set us free
All you need is to trust in Him
And He will wipe away every sin

Joy, make a joyful noise
Oh, joy, make a joyful noise
Yeah, joy, make a joyful noise
To the Lord, our God above

Joy, make a joyful noise
Oh, joy, make a joyful noise
Yeah, joy, make a joyful noise
To the Lord, our God above

Joy, make a joyful noise
Oh, joy, make a joyful noise
Yeah, joy, make a joyful noise
To the Lord, our God above

24 February 2009

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Yeah, another song. No, I don't know why.

The Way He Was When He Was Mine

You say he’s all but perfect
He fulfills your every need
He’s always sweet and loving
And you just can’t believe
How anyone could ever let him go
But, girl, just give him time
Prince Charming soon will be a toad
The way he was when he was mine

He’ll forget to say I love you
Then he’ll forget to come back home
He’ll hurry to another room
To whisper on the phone
He’ll tell you that you’re crazy
When you catch him in a lie
He’ll be cheating, no-good, lazy
The way he was when he was mine

Those flowers and cards he send you
Well soon they’re gonna stop
You’ll be sitting up all night long
Just staring at the clock
You think you’re gonna change hime
But girl you’re gonna find
That cheating’s just his way of life
And that’s why he’s no longer mine

He forgets to say I love you,
Then he forget to come back home
He hurries to another room
And whispers on the phone
He tells you that you’re crazy
When you catch him in a lie
He’s cheating, no-good, lazy
That’s the way he was when he was mine

Well, girl I’ve been right where you’re at
And I’ve cried those same tears
All I can say is don’t be like me
And go on wasting years

Where he forgets to say I love you,
Then he forget to come back home
He hurries to another room
And whispers on the phone
He tells you that you’re crazy
When you catch him in a lie
He’s cheating, no-good, lazy
That’s the way he was when he was mine

So don’t think you’re gonna change
His cheating way of life
He’s no-good, low down, lazy
The way he was when he was mine

20 February 2009

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Not my best work, but I like it.

Heart To Heart

What a shock it was to see you standing there
So sweet and strong, you were an answered prayer
From the first sweet kiss, that’s when I knew
This is where I belong, this is where I choose
To be by your side for the rest of my life
Your love is all I need, and it feels so right
And I loved you right from the start
Side by side, eye to eye, heart to heart

Won’t you take my head and we’ll run away
Find a sandy beach where we can love and play
Or a mountain lodge with the snow piled high
No matter where we are, no matter where we go
Just to be with you, that’s all I want
Side by side, eye to eye, heart to heart

When I see your face something seeps through me
I am bound by love; I am soaring free
You lift me up to a higher place
When you reach for me, I can hardly wait
You are always mine, I’m forever yours
And I can’t remember ever wanting more
Because I loved you right from the start
Side by side, eye to eye, heart to heart

Won’t you take my hand and we’ll run away
Find a quiet place to waste away the day
In the tropic heat or the freezing snow
Now matter where we are, no matter where we go
Just to be with you, that’s all I want
Side by side, eye to eye, heart to heart

And I loved you right from the start
Side by side, eye to eye, heart to heart

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

This one's for my Bearpup. Happy Valentine's Day, my love.

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Sometimes when I'm alone and have a quiet moment to think
I wonder what my life would be like if you had known how to love me
Sometimes I wonder who I'd be today if you had been
What all children should have and not what you were
Would I be half as strong
If I hadn't had to treat you
As if you were a child?
Would I still know right from wrong
If I hadn't watched you
Manipulate and lie?
Would I still fear being the center of attention
If I hadn't watched you
Create such horrendous scenes?
Would I still pretend I wasn't sick
If I hadn't seen you
Pretend to commit suicide so many times
Just for attention?
Would I still be so obsessed with being in control
If I hadn't seen you lose yours
So many times?
Would I still be so obsessed with being loved
If I hadn't spent so many years
Fighting for love from you?
And how do I forgive you for all that you've done
When in your own mind
You never did anything wrong?

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Altar Call

As I walked through the doors and I sat down in the pew
I knew somehow that I did not belong
I don't know why I came; I don't know why I stayed
When the urge to run away was so strong
But I had the strangest feeling he was talking just to me
When the preacher said it's time to make a choice
But I bowed my head in shame, knowing God could not want me
Then at my side I heard this gentle voice

Don't you know Me? Don't you love Me?
Can't you trust that I will never bring you harm?
Are you lonely? Are you hurting?
Why won't you let Me hold you in My arms?
Because I love you
Oh, how I love you

My emptiness consumed me, as the choir sang a hymn
And the preacher stood and gave the altar call
As my past flashed through my mind; all the many wrongs I'd done
My eyes fell on the cross upon the wall
Tears slid down my face, that I wasn't good enough
Then the preacher spoke of mercy undeserved
Of a Father who loved me, and would always forgive me
The somewhere in these words I found the nerve

Do you know Me? Do you love Me?
Can you trust that I will never bring you harm?
Are you lonely? Are you hurting?
Why won't you let Me hold you in My arms?
Because I love you
Oh, how I love you

I knelt down at the rail and I repeated the prayer
And all at once, my pain and hurt were gone
As I stood and turned around, that's when I could finally see
It was the one place on earth that I belonged

Because He knows me; and He loves me
And I can trust that He will never do me harm
I'm not lonely; I'm not hurting
Because I'm finally held safe within His arms
Because He loves me
Oh, how He loves me

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

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I'm grateful that you worry
And I appreciate your concern
But why on earth are you lecturing me
For things beyond my control?
It's nice to know I matter
And it's sweet to know you care
But I'm not doing this on purpose
It's something I can't stop
I know that you can't see how deeply
Your words have caused me pain
You gently comfort others
But tell me I should be ashamed
Just because you cannot see
How truly sick I am
Or how badly this illness hurts me
You think I have no need
For love or comforting words
You cannot see how badly
My heart has begun to hurt
You hold me at arms length
Afraid you'll catch it too
When the very thing I need
Is a kiss, a hug, a smile
Or just a kind word from you

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

For the record, I am sick. I am not anorexic. I am not on a crash diet. I am not starving myself. I AM SICK. Please stop fussing at me for losing weight. I'M NOT DOING IT ON PURPOSE!!! I AM SICK!!!