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I'm complicated, can you handle that?
The way I talk, the way I act?
Can you handle tears for no good reason?
Blind loyalty and random treason?
Can you take my private kind of crazy?
The times I'm hyper, the times I'm lazy?
The random thoughts that cross my mind
Are often weird and badly timed.
And when in the middle of a crowd
Will it embarrass you when I laugh out loud?
With no excuse and no regret
For something so long ago said?
And when I laugh until I cry
Will you be mad not knowing why?
When you see how strong I am
Will it ruin all your precious plans?
Will you turn and walk away
Because of something I just had to say?
And when I fall so dark and deep
Will you hold me while I weep?

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

On Writing...

No updates on my other writings. With all the stress from my crazy life, I've had to turn to writing other things...mainly resumes and application letters. I'll go back to writing soon. Assuming Murphy's Law ever decides to pass me by. :)

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Desperate Prayer

Precious angel hear my plea
Please come near and answer me
Grant me help from up above
I need your help; I need your love
I'm slowly sinking, going under
Losing hope; losing wonder
I try and try, yet nothing works
Do you above, see my hurt?
See my worry, see my pain?
And can you make me whole again?

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

stress

stress
coming from every angle
stress
driving me out of my mind
stress
making it impossible to sleep
stress
making it hard to eat
stress
making me the world's biggest bitch
stress
tearing me apart
stress
making me want to run away
stress
making my life seem worthless
stress
is anything really worth this?

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Disillusioned

How can so many things
Go so wrong
So quickly?
How can everything
Fall apart
All at once?
How can things be so right
So perfect one day
And all to hell
The next?
And where
Can you find help
When there's no one
To turn to?

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Refuge

Hold me, love
And wash away the pain
Wipe away my tears
Hold me close
Don't let me go
Save me from my fears

Hold me, love
And keep me safe
Protect me from the pain
Hold me close
Don't let me go
Or I'll never be the same

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Crap...

So, let me get this straight...
We can put a man on the moon...
We can cure most and even prevent some diseases...
We can take an organ from one person and put it in another...
But we can't make a popcorn that pops completely
so that there are no hard little kernels to bite down on
and break your tooth with?

Bullshit.

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

broken angel

i see you there upon the shelf
sweet little golden angel
so beautiful and fragile
how everyone admires you
comments on your beauty
on how you sparkle and shine
on how perfect you are
and most believe it
only the very few
who reach out to touch you
can see how truly broken you are

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

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Like fruit from barren trees now falling
Whispered words within me calling
Though truth and life and hope depart
You remain forever in my heart

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

On Writing...

Well...I see that I missed my weekly writing update...oops.

I could give you an incredible excuse as to why I haven't written anything but poetry lately...but I'm supposed to be truthful with this, right? Okay...I was writing on Legacy, but the character I was working with got a little...darker than I had originally planned. So, I switched over to Survivor and managed to get a working outline for about 2/3 of the story...but as I said before, the content hits a little close to home....

So, now I'm trying to work up a story that I used to tell to amuse my cousins when I was a kid...well, that is until I got in trouble for giving them nightmares. LOL

No name, no word count, it's all still in my head. So, there you go.

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

truth

a mysterious truth
that shines in my soul
resisting explanation
it shines on
defying logic
it shines on
unswayed by argument
it shines on
undaunted by darkness
it shines on
doubt cannot touch it
fear cannot shake it
time cannot test it
it is simply there
steady and sure
warm and inviting
perfect and true
untouched by the world
it shines on

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

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Precious love
How sweet the sight
When you walked into the room

Perfect love
How sweet the sound
When you whispered my name

Paling love
How sharp the pain
When you turned away from me

Painful love
How sharp the ache
When I no longer had you

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Confession

here i stand before you

shameful and contrite

no excusing

no justifying

no rationalizing

just me

and my wrong

i lay it

at your feet

and pray that

as ever always

you will show me

more mercy

than i deserve

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Storm

What fire now within me burns
As through darkened glass I view the world
And as I watch with childlike wonder
Lightning flashes rolls of thunder
Shake this world and light the sky
But I can only watch and sigh

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Canticle of the Tax Collector

"Unworthy, Lord," I cry, "Unworthy,
Unworthy of love; unworthy of mercy.
I have been sinful, Lord great is my pride.
I have cheated, mistreated, spouted out lies;
My temper and tongue, both are quite quick.
I haven't cared for the poor, the needy, the sick.
I cared not for the widow or orphaned child
And at times I even held back my tithes.
I only prayed to you Lord, when I had the time.
Oh, great is my sorrow, great is my crime.
So now before my Lord I shamefully come
With sorrow and regret for what I have done.
And though I know Lord, that I am unworthy,
I fall before you now, crying out 'Mercy'
Mercy my Lord, if in Your wise eyes
This Sinner may ever be justified."

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

At A Loss...

I've so much within me that I want to say
But I'm not sure anyone's listening anyway
I got what I wanted, but don't want what I've got
My mind turns against me more often than not
I hate who I am and what I've become
But I see no way out even if I could run
Some days I wish that I'd never been here
That I'd never known pain, that I'd never known fear
Sometimes I rage and sometimes I cry
Do I know the truth or is it all lies?
Are you my enemy or are you my friend?
And will any of it matter when we get to the end?

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Oh...and one more thing...why the heck is everything coming out in rhymes lately? I never used to rhyme hardly anything....

murder

rustle of wings
black feathers fly
hunting and stalking
with ghostly cry
chasing tirelessly
through darkened sky
and waiting for
the midnight strike
to steal your soul
and watch you die

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

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what whispered words did i once breathe
to bring attention from you three
i have no need for your dark charms
and i'll not tremble with alarm
so take from me your lowly tricks
and find another to bewitch

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Witness

With whispering rustle of ebony wings
Crow descends from trees now barren
In raveny speech, crying
In eerie silence, staring
No promises offers Crow
No deals that you may later break
Simply watches for it knows
You've nothing left to pray

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Benediction

Lift us up within Your sight
Bless us with Your holy light
Show us Lord, what we should do
That we may better serve for You
Lift us up with loving hearts
And make us each a fruitful part
Of Your Church and of Your Glory
Lift us up Lord, make us worthy

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

love

i love...
i love to love...
i love to love my love...

come to me
and you will see
how very much i love

walk with me
and you will see
how deeply can i love

stand with me
and you will see
how fiercely can i love

lie with me
and you will see
how sweetly can i love

trust in me
and you will see
how only you i love

i love...
i love to love...
i love to love my love...

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

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You shower me with love unearned
light fire that within me burns
and judge this soul, so very stained
worth more gold than man can weigh
You wrap me in Your warmth and love
and accept me in Your world above
and though i fall and cry unworthy
You shake your head and whisper worthy
"You were created in My name
and all within you I may claim
although I leave the choice to you
(for love freely given is always true)
I never left your side my child
through valleys dark or jungles wild"
and when i awoke, i knew the truth
that love alone shall be the proof

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

winds of love

angel wings beat against the trees
releasing golden snow of autumn leaves
a rushing wind like banshee's scream
as winter falls upon the dream
the snow that falls is pure and white
and bathes us in the holy light
those who seek shall truly find
One most loving, just and kind
the One who is and always was
the One who loves you just because...

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

haunted

the house was dark and deep
and i should have known better
then to let my curiosity
get the better of me
but off i went alone
to seek the secrets that i sensed
but when i found them
i turned away
only to find
the greater evil
waited behind me

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Victory

What vanity this be
And not at all like me
To laugh and sing in such delight
But it has been quite a fight
To get to where I am today
And nice to see rewards are paid
So vain, you think and it may be
To find my joy in such a thing
But to think such thoughts can only mean
You've never fought the skinny jeans

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene