betrayal

if only you knew the pain it causes
to have someone you love
defend another from you
as if you were the evil one
to have them take another's side
as if they didn't trust you
and if only you knew
how many times i've stood there
feeling like a total bitch
even though i know i'm right
trying to defend and protect what i love
only to find the one i love standing against me
even though you should be on my side
and no one else's

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Not really sure why I didn't post this one when I wrote it....December 08

Untitled

what a sad little girl
sitting there in the corner
so frightened and alone
wanting only to be loved
wanting only to be wanted
she doesn't want to control
she wants to be important
she doesn't want to manipulate
she wants to be interesting
if she asks for attention
she's being selfish
if she asks for more time
she's being controlling
and so she sits in the corner alone
trying to hide her tears
wishing she was interesting enough
to talk to for hours
wishing she was enough
to keep your attention on her
wishing she knew what made her
always feel like second best
and wishing with all her heart
that she could be your world
as much as you are hers

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Aurora

oh my precious little angel
if you had any idea
what it did for my heart
to know that you remember me
to know that even once
i crossed your mind
if you had any idea
how many times you've crossed mine
how much love i still have for you
how much i've worried about you
and that you've never left my heart
oh my precious angel
how i've missed you
all these years

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

Homesick

I'm so tired of being
A stranger in a strange land
Where everything is so hard
And everything hurts so much
I'm tired of the pain
I'm tired of being sick
I'm tired of being tired
I'm willing to do whatever job
You set before me
But why must I suffer so
To get it done?
I hate so much to complain
But I need some help
Because this night just keeps getting longer
And the dawn seems so far away....

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

untitled

rays of blood fall from the sun
over valleys blackened by fire
as daylight seizes the land
wails and moans waft on breezes rising
from hidden clefts in mountain dark
the pale queen flees her once darkened kingdom
as the fire of truth burns her eyes
and what of her children
the millions
that follow her faithfully from shore to shore
will they share her fate
or will they see that their queen
only reflects the light of the sun

© 1991-2009 Samantha Greene

And so my dreams just continue to get weirder and weirder...